Uhmah Song
Dear Parents,

I am writing this as we are on our way to college orientation and there are some things I want to you that I can’t bring myself to say to you so I’ll just write it down here. So first of all, to be honest I still have no idea whatsoever what I want to study in college or even what I want to do with my life. My plans are to start studying Mechanical Engineering and go towards that direction. And if I don’t enjoy that area of studies then maybe switch to Graphic Designs and if THAT doesn’t work out then maybe go towards like Federal Justice or whatever it’s called. You know like police and FBI or something like that. But who am I to make plans? I mean MY plans? I think that’s more of my direction. My plans aren’t for me to make, they’re God’s plans. What he has planned for me…. What DOES he have planned for me?… I have no idea where I’ll be few years down the road from now. Not even the slightest hint. I couldn’t say this to ya’ll because I didn’t want to worry you.

Especially you Dad. I know you’re not so “Religious” so I couldn’t say that I have no control of what I’m gonna do… but yeah. Other than that, I’m really excited to go to college and also a bit scared/nervous to be away from home. I think I’ll be able to manage … ha well I guess I have to manage right? Dad you want me to go in to AFROTC and I guess I can look into it, I mean it can’t be as bad as goin to The Citadel right? And I just have to serve for what? 3? 4? Years after college? I guess I’ll give it a shot. I hope you learn to “let go” or realize that I’m in college now and can take care of and worry about myself. (for the most part). I’ll try to do my best and not become lazy especially during the first year. I hope I can make you proud.

Mom, I know you really don’t like the thought of me going away from home but hey, at least it’s not out of state. I hope you don’t expect me to call/e-mail/txt you everyday -_- ha. Please don’t worry about me too much. I’ll be good (or try to at least. Haha) and try to stay out of trouble and accidents… but they’re not called accidents for nothing right? I’ll be safe, eat well, study well, and do all that good stuff. I hope you don’t stress out too much because of Peter and Paul and work and stay healthy! (I’m gonna miss your cooking -_-)

Well that’s what I wanted to say for now. I Love You both!!!

Your Favorite Son,
Patrick Kim

Next Letter: Letter 4 – To My Siblings

Dear Crush,

so i think i’m in love with you, but i dont think you even understand my feelings and how much you mean to me. and you’re so beautiful and im just kidding because i dont really know who you are because at this moment i don’t like you. (to the readers: “Gotchya!”) but yeah. anewaysss whoever you may be i hope that we have a good relationship as friends to start off with and then we can go from there…

… okay so i really don’t know how to write this letter to a non existent person. so yeaaaah…. i’ll just write about my day i guess and random stuff.

TODAY i woke up and watched the world cup (Korea vs Nigeria) at church and then had VBS. during VBS we ate donkatsu(sp?) for dinner, had chicken fights and stuff. after that on the way to get so frozen yogurt at Fruiti Cup, i got pulled over for doing 80 in a 60. (i guess there’s a first for everything) but its only because i was ditched by my friend (we were gonna go watch toy story 3) but yeah haha (jk friend ) but yeah, then i went to fruiti cup and got my froyo and came home, watched a movie (title: Triangle) and watched youtube videos till i decided to write this. and my mom came in my room around 1:20 and scared the ddong out of me (not literally) cuz i was listening to music and all of a sudden there’s a hand on my shoulder but yeah.

AT THE MOMENT: i really with i could sing, i really want galbi/samgyupsal, and i really wanna get fit/lose weight (meaning lose fat)

RANDOM:
- i think im gonna try P90X whenever my friend is done with it
- can’t wait to use the gym during college
- i WANT to gain “freshman 15″ in college…. 15 lbs of muscle! oh yeaah!!!!….
- im getting fat, i need to run
- im getting bored now… gonna go sleep.

peyce out

Next Letter: Letter 3 – To My Parents

Letter 1 – To My Best Friend.

Dear Best Friend,

Who are you? I don’t really know who you are, sometimes it’s you, then it’s him, and other days it’s her, and sometimes that other person. why can’t you just stay and be my best friend all the time? 24/7? Aren’t you supposed to be there whenever i need you? What is a “Best Friend”  ??? the way i see it, it is a BEST as in SINGULAR, One person, who is your greatest friend right? i mean if someone asked me who my best friend was i’d probably mention you, and some other people along with you. i want to be able to say, “yeah, he’s/she’s my best friend” not just “yeah, he’s/she’s ONE OF my best friend(S)” can’t you just remain the same person and stop being so indecisive on when you want to be my best friend or not? and yeah some of my best friends are best friends but isnt a “Best Friend” someone you are comfortable with telling everything? anything? whether it be a deepest darkest secret, Family problems, random anythings. and why is it that when i’m with you, sometimes i feel intimidated, even if it’s just the slightest bit? i mean it’s not fair is it?
whoever you are, i wish you would just lemme know anytime soon. but take your time i guess cuz i’ve been doin fine the past few years of my life. no pressure!

Your Best Friend,
Patrick Kim

(to anyone who took this personally, this letter was not meant for anyone specifically, and if you thought maybe that you were my best friend and feel that i dont think you are, then i’m truly sorry. but who knows? you may actually BE my Best Friend?) ANDDD don’t get me wrong! i have some of the greatest friends in my life! cept none of them are my one best one, they’re all pretty much equally great.

peyce out

Next Letter: Letter 2 – To My Crush

Highlights of the Day

- got paid money money

- at manhattan, this 12 year old boy comes in and see the pictures of David (Paik) with all the rappers and stuff. and he says, “Hey man, how did you get a picture with all them people?” and then David’s reply is: “Its cuz I’m a rapper.” hahaha

- went bowling and had fun

- I listened to Christian music in my car (CD) and had a good time singing along.

- I was happy throughout most of today!

Lowlights of the day

- worked for 9 1/2 hours today…

- my Converses ruined another pair of socks…

- my dinner (at BK Lounge… aka Burger King) was a super long wait, my nuggets were stale, AND they didnt have any sweet & sour sauce!

- Couldn’t go to CYA bible study

- pretty much sucked at bowling today. 1st game: 94 (or something) – 2nd game: 68… – 3rd game: 101 …. horrible…

okay so this seems kind of girly, and i’ll probably end up skipping some of them or quitting 1/2 way or something like that but whateverrr (just saw my friend’s and thought it was interesting, that’s all)

30 letters.

You can either send it to them (anonymously or with your name) or keep them to yourself. On this day you write a letter to:

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

…sorry God

so here goes my random rant on whatever and all that good stuff. or just stuff.

- currently listening to: Sleep All Day – Jason Mraz
- my surroundings: in my living room with the only lights from the kitchen, sitting in my massage chair, with my mom doing dishes in the kitchen and my brother sleeping in an awkward sitting position on the couch.

- This is by far probably the best idea ive had this year! aaaaah. taking my laptop to my massage chair! why didnt i think of this before?

- todays weather (Feb 22, the day it rained in the morning) was amazing, expecially around 4 o’clockish(?) i love it, it’s calm, the atmosphere’s color is like a dull orange color, and everythings so peaceful. (as gay as i sound right now) i love when it’s sunny after it rains. its great. (like ur mom…. what?!) ha but yeah.

- so i realized that sometimes i feel as if nothing secular matters at all, (well it actually doesnt matter cuz what you end up doing for a living or becoming doesnt determine whether you enter the gates of heaven or not) but you know what im sayin, it still matters to be successful and all that good stuff.  but dont get me wrong, this thought process isnt coming from an existentialist view. (yes Grice’s students, i said it!) and not to be emo or anything but i feel it really doesnt matter in the end.. like foreal. i could drop out of highschool right now, and go do some crazy things and die in a week, month, year , and still go to heaven, and all that . but of course im gonna keep doin what im doin. but yeaaaah would i be able to focus on God more if i didnt have school and college to worry about? or would i just have fun and become more lazy and just waste my time??? or both? that would be awesome! ha but i should just keep dreaming right?

- so earlier i felt like i had a lot to say but now that im actually writing, not really. ha

- to this day, i still have no idea what i want to pursue or what God wants me to pursue. i got into 3/4 colleges so far, and am waiting for my fourth. and i have no idea where i wanna go either. i wanna go to usc, but my dad doesnt really want me to. i kinda wanna go to the citadel, but i know knob year’s gonna be hell, and i dont think i can take 4 year of waking up at like 5:30 every morning… im not to psyched about clemson.. and ga tech? i dont plan on committing suicide anytime soon. ha but yea we’ll see.
Dear God, what is your purpose for me???

- my youtube is being super slow and it sucks… i have to wait friggin 30 minutes to listen to like a 3 minute song…
and speaking of youtube. i watched “a walk to remember” the other night (for the 3rd time?). and i dont care what you say, i think its an awesome movie! friggin makes me wanna have a girl friend! ha its so sad. ha okay…. that’s enough…. (i love sad movies….. everyone watch Hachiko!!!! its awesome!) (anyone have a good sad movie recommendation??? if you love me then you should make me a movie list….okay so you dont have to love me . and it doesnt have to be all sad)
well since im on the topic, ill list some movies i thought were awesome (not particular order)
- Hachiko
- Blood Diamond
- Memento
- Rambo (which ever that last one is. ha)
- The(?) Terminal
- 300
- Fight Club
- Dark Knight
- Any movie w/ Johnny Depp (friggin love that guy!) (Secret Window, Sweeney Todd, Pirates of the Carribean(just for his acting) etc)
- i cant think of any more right now…
but yeah! make me a list!!!

- so everytime i blog now, i think of how my friend told me i sound like a girl…. DO I SOUND LIKE A GIRL STILL!?!?!!? haha -_-

but that’s bout it. my minds is blank right about now. im zoning out. my back kind of hurts from this massage now… but yaaaaah.

peace out home skillet biscuits.

(random title… i know) haha

so i was talking to my friend about college and they asked me what i wanted to do and i said the most ridiculous thing. ha. i said, “well what my plan is….” isnt it ridiculous? ha who am I to say what I plan. MY plans? ha! yeah right. …. this just made me realized how dependent ive become on myself when i should rely on God and depend on God and pray about the plans he has for me… ahhhh. what’ve i become! ha -_- well i hope his plans for me are good….

wow…im getting so old! ha for me not for all you old people out there. i know im still young but still. this is  crazy!. this is madness!!!

so my new years resolution this year is to be
1) more passionate about God by reading the bible more, praying more, and having accountability partners…
2) less procrastination (more productive) by less cpu time, more focused, and shorter if not less naps…
3) dont die. haha trust me. it’s a reasonable resolution for me…
4) dont get in huge accidents XD
and thats about it really. ha.

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okay now im just saying random stuff.. ha

okay here goes.

some of my pet peeves (no particular order)
- rude people. (when people talk/txt/shout during movies) (when people are at your house and think it’s their house, like opening the fridge w/o permission)
- being/feeling helpless (when someone’s having trouble, and i cant do anything about it. like just listening and not saying the right things and what not)
- bad drivers. rule of thumb for driving: If they drive faster than you then they’re crazy, if the drive slower than you then they’re idiots. oh yeah, also “woman drivers, no survivors” ha jk ….
- couples that don’t match. or are disgusting. or different around people…
- and im sure i have many more….

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…. i KNOW there was something else i was gonna write about…. but i forgot completely… so ill write it later…..